Its just like any other morning where you wake up and not feel like yourself. Depressed, lousy, just not in the mood to do anything. All i want is just to leave this *%^ing place and GO HOME! My mood swings are back to haunt me, migrane getting worse than ever eventhough im getting more than enough sleep, bowels so haywire till nothing works anymore. IM STRESSED OUT! AT A BREAKING POINT!
From now on, these rantings shall go on and on and on, at least till the end of july, till almost everything has settled down, except for the 'one chance only' to pass exam in August. Oh, i don't know, every little thing just stressed me out nowdays (what time to go to the hosp, what to do there, if my beds are empty, whether there's a session later today, what im going to have for dinner, what time to take ted for a walk...)
Oh, I DON'T KNOW. I guess im just BURNT OUT after 3 weeks of O&G, or is it because the 'end' is so near yet so far? I feel as though i need to talk to someone, but yet, i can't seem to open up to anyone around. Be it a stranger or a friend, it dosen't work on me. It never does. I can't call mum to tell her what's going on with me right now, she would be worried sick, or she wouldn't be bothered much as she always thinks that 'i can handle things'. I honestly have no idea where she gets all the confidence that she has on me, when i DON'T EVEN HAVE IT MYSELF!
These are the times that i wished that life were that simple. Wake up, spend the entire day doing whatever i like, then go to bed with no worries in mind...
@ 0745, 06062008, i've had enough of life...
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