Was counting my days earlier this afternoon, realized something which i failed to realise long long time ago. Im just going to get 'one-shot' at it this time, no second chances. Im literally 'freaking-out' this moment, at the verge to contemplating suicide. Stress levels now are of the 'un-imaginable'. Regrets are starting to pour in, but of no use. It's too late now to cry over spilled milk. All i can do now is to 'make the best' out of whatever i have left, and PRAY EXTREMELY HARD!
Most of the things in life are a 'once in a lifetime' chance event. This time round, it's no different. Honestly, whatever 'life changing events' that are bout to happen these few months down the road, there would be 'no return ticket'. Whatever that's ever going to happen, is going to happen, just how that i would make the 'best out of it'. It's going to be an extremely 'short' next few months, with tonnes of critical decisions to be made, which would affect my future altogether. I sincerely hate these moments in life, never had to go through it before in this contexts. When everything is laid out and options given, it's not that simple to decide. There's no more 'going back' to where it all began. That staged has passed a 'long time' ago, and it's time to move on. No more procrastinating, no more being a kid, it's time to GROW UP!
Gosh, im so not ready to face life at this moment. Im driving myself nuts, i don't think that i can handle all these 'craziness' at this moment. Im still an immature soul, waiting to discover one-self. I've yet to pass through that phase. It's like i have to grow up in 2 months, after all i've not been 'growing up' for the past 24 years! Where the hell has it all gone to? Im definitely not ready to face whatever that's going to be thrown to me be it now, or in a couple of months time...
@ 2101, 05062008, i don't think i can take it anymore...
Most of the things in life are a 'once in a lifetime' chance event. This time round, it's no different. Honestly, whatever 'life changing events' that are bout to happen these few months down the road, there would be 'no return ticket'. Whatever that's ever going to happen, is going to happen, just how that i would make the 'best out of it'. It's going to be an extremely 'short' next few months, with tonnes of critical decisions to be made, which would affect my future altogether. I sincerely hate these moments in life, never had to go through it before in this contexts. When everything is laid out and options given, it's not that simple to decide. There's no more 'going back' to where it all began. That staged has passed a 'long time' ago, and it's time to move on. No more procrastinating, no more being a kid, it's time to GROW UP!
Gosh, im so not ready to face life at this moment. Im driving myself nuts, i don't think that i can handle all these 'craziness' at this moment. Im still an immature soul, waiting to discover one-self. I've yet to pass through that phase. It's like i have to grow up in 2 months, after all i've not been 'growing up' for the past 24 years! Where the hell has it all gone to? Im definitely not ready to face whatever that's going to be thrown to me be it now, or in a couple of months time...
@ 2101, 05062008, i don't think i can take it anymore...
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