2009...

It came then it went. Time indeed flies when you are busy with life. This post is 3 days early (thanks to the EOD calls all lined up for this entire week, i doubt if i have the time to blog anytime soon). 2009 has indeed been an eventful year for me...

1. Getting my first ever pay check which its amout was something i never gotten before.
2. Making new friends (which i NEVER EVER do).
3. Losing 2 family members.
4. Accepting 4 new family members.
5. Back to being myself, despite of all the craziness in life that i go through everyday.

Lessons i learnt well this year...

1. Life IS SHORT! Enjoy life to the fullest everyday. You'll never know when your time comes.
2. Letting go and moving on. (im not even through the letting go part yet!)
3. There's never ever enough love to be spread around.
4. Love life, love yourself, love everyone around you, love everything around you.
5. Always be thankful and appreciate what you have.

Has indeed been a roller coaster ride this year. Especially the past few weeks. But whatever has happened has happened, life goes on. This shall be one of those years that would be hard to forget, if it would ever be forgotten. It's easy to say that life goes on, but it hardly does go on for me. Im not even half way through the letting go part.

People i've met throughout this year have been really nice to me, and i thank god for letting our lives meet. A million thanks to all those who have been my pillars of support and hope, those who lent me a crying shoulder, those who were there when i needed them most.

Im a loner, i sincerely admit this. After losing my best friend, life still aint the same yet, but i do hope that time heals all sores. I still do cry to sleep at night, i just miss you being next to me. It's different of you not being around, something is missing from my life. I miss you being there when i get home, i miss the pillow talks , i miss the sharing of food, i miss the 'lazing' sessions, i just miss you so so much.

Enough said. Goodbye 2009...

@ 1038, 28122009, miss you buddy...

Best Friend

Lost my best friend on wee hours of saturday morning (5 December 2009), after battling lifehe most unwanted death certificate (brain cancer) for almost year. He's not just my best friend, but rather my other half. Been with each other for the past 10 years, i owe all my emotions to him. I've learnt most of life's lessons from him. It has been as if we were connected somehow. He was the one and only person that could read my mind, always knew what i was going through during my rough times, knew when i was happy, was there when i needed a heart to heart chat, was there to contain all my tears during my down days, was there most of the time in my life for the past 10 years.

It's hard to loose someone that you are so close to, someone that is the pillar of your life, someone who just knows what's going on in your life. He was there when i graduated from highschool, college and university. He was there when i celebrated 10 of my birthdays. He was there when i started working. He was there when i needed him most, always there no matter night or day, just there. Nevertheless, its time to let go. It is time for him to go to a better place. The last week of his life was just plain cruel. Moaning in pain although on 50mcg of fentanyl patch. It's a blessing that he does not have to suffer anymore. Gone to a better place. But no matter what. i shall never forget you, buddy. You'll always have a special place in my heard.

May you rest in peace, Teddy. Love you always...

@ 1849, 08122009. This post is 3 days late, thanks to EOD calls, end of posting presentation and assessment. Thank godness the at least the end of posting stuff are over now...