Choices...

The sea of options are so vast. Overwhelming till im drowning. I've reached my breaking point till i don't even know what is my purpose in life. I don't even know what i want to do after i graduate. Plans, plans, plans... Never-ending plans. One after the other, if plan A dosen't work out, then move on to plan B. You know what? IM really SICK of thinking about it.

Had a rather intriguing conversation earlier. In the end of the day, it all boils down to 4 crucial factors...

1. income
2. workload
3. ease of securing a definite position
4. family

So, which comes first? Prioritisation, another aspect which i suck at big time. I don't think that income and workload would be a problem for me. Im definitely torn between family and the ease of securing a definite position. I DON'T KNOW. I don't know what's going on in my life this moment, i don't know what im thinking most of the time. Why can't i just be like everyone else, and get absorbed into the government system? Why can't i just lead a simple, un-intresting, un-stressful life? Why must there be so many decisions and choices to be made? Why? Why? Why?

In the end of the day, i do know that these would be the fruits of my labour. But, for now, i am really sick of listening to what other people say, especially from someone who plays an important role in my life. I don't think i can take it anymore. I felt that i should had deferred. Im really starting to regret it now. It's too late though, and i have to live with the consequences. I definitely do not want to make another similiar mistake in the near future. I don't think that im ready to go out there and face life now. I need a break... A long long long long long break......

@ 1344, 19062008, what would you do??? What should i do???