Yippiedy, yappady, yak...

Indeed i have no idea how i conjured up the title of this post, it was just something that came across my mine while i was waiting for this page to load (yeah, it does takes maxis 'narrowband' centuries just to load a page!). Neway, life has been prety hectic the past week, daily classes (pbl's or just being a SP), housechores to be done, time needed to nurse that timebomb headache, or just plain lazing around at home with ted.

That old guy seems to be gaining pounds the past few months, more specifically since i got home for good. He's getting old by the second, tired and sleeping most of the day, getting mild 'asthmatic attacks' whenever he gets too excited, front paw arthritis at nights, grouchy sometimes... Guess thats just the ageing process that living beings go through. Still yet to outgrow the puppy habit, like bone and toy chewing. That's the weirdest thing about him, so old yet still young at heart.

Haven't much to blog about lately, partly contributed my being tired all the time. I sleep most of the day, yet, i still do yawn most of the time. Im just lethargic, so so tired till i'd rather glue my butt onto the couch or bed. Don't know what is so physically draining, whats 'eating' all my energy.

@ 1106, 10042009, cooking lunch soon...

Depersonalization...

Been under the weather the past 2 days. Waking up with headaches, feeling un-attached to my body yet able to feel the pain, mood swings on and off during the day, lethargic... I just don't know what is wrong with me. The stress levels are now NIL, but, these complaints seem to be worse day by day. Im currently up to 3 tabs of cafergot for the past 2 days, and about to take another while im typing in this post. The cafergot only gives temporary relieve, by masking the worst ever migranes that i'll ever get.

My life haven't been greater now. Received my first paycheck recently, classes every other day, spending most of my time with ted, catching up on reading, 'roaming' the shopping complexes with WK on mondays... There's nothing else i can ask for, other than GET RID OF THIS DAMNED HEADACHE!

Honestly, its getting worse. There's nothing much i can do about it these days other than try to get some sleep in my 'dracula like' room. Sometimes i think that im indeed paranoid, thinking that there's actually 'something growing in my brain'. The headaches does indeed change intensity with position, and definitely worse when i bend down. The more i think of it, i seriously think that 'its all in my head', im fine. But one thing is for sure, vomiting does indeed relieves it temporarily, only to get it back again after an hour or so.

Gut-wise, its still the same, with in-the gut-mood-swings as well. Calorie intake still the same, just the lack of exercise. Lost the interst to go swimming, mostly due to the headaches and tiredness all the time. Just climbing up the stairs would 'kill me'.

I sometimes feel that this body of mine is at the verge of giving up. Even my back, knee and hip giving problems at times. Im going to pass only quater of a century soon, but, it is too fast indeed for me to give it all up now. I've gotta buckle up and find a long tern solution for all of these...

@ 04042009, 1224, today aint my day...