Been under the weather the past 2 days. Waking up with headaches, feeling un-attached to my body yet able to feel the pain, mood swings on and off during the day, lethargic... I just don't know what is wrong with me. The stress levels are now NIL, but, these complaints seem to be worse day by day. Im currently up to 3 tabs of cafergot for the past 2 days, and about to take another while im typing in this post. The cafergot only gives temporary relieve, by masking the worst ever migranes that i'll ever get.
My life haven't been greater now. Received my first paycheck recently, classes every other day, spending most of my time with ted, catching up on reading, 'roaming' the shopping complexes with WK on mondays... There's nothing else i can ask for, other than GET RID OF THIS DAMNED HEADACHE!
Honestly, its getting worse. There's nothing much i can do about it these days other than try to get some sleep in my 'dracula like' room. Sometimes i think that im indeed paranoid, thinking that there's actually 'something growing in my brain'. The headaches does indeed change intensity with position, and definitely worse when i bend down. The more i think of it, i seriously think that 'its all in my head', im fine. But one thing is for sure, vomiting does indeed relieves it temporarily, only to get it back again after an hour or so.
Gut-wise, its still the same, with in-the gut-mood-swings as well. Calorie intake still the same, just the lack of exercise. Lost the interst to go swimming, mostly due to the headaches and tiredness all the time. Just climbing up the stairs would 'kill me'.
I sometimes feel that this body of mine is at the verge of giving up. Even my back, knee and hip giving problems at times. Im going to pass only quater of a century soon, but, it is too fast indeed for me to give it all up now. I've gotta buckle up and find a long tern solution for all of these...
@ 04042009, 1224, today aint my day...
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