How do you ever say goodbye to someone that you really love and treasure so much? It ain't easy, yet, when the time comes, it has to be done. Gosh, it's a 2 to 3 yearly affair, when its time to say goodbye, i'll swear that i'll not get another. But once the bereavement period is over, when everything is back to normal, there i'll go again, only to repeat the act, knowing pretty well that i'll have to say my goodbyes some time soon.
Im just 'crushed' now. Thus already with a MBBS degree, yet i still can't cure illnesses or alleviate pain and suffering. I feel so useless. What on earth am i going to do with a 'rodent' with PR bleeding, who is anaemic and dehydrated? Im such an idoit. Should i practice euthanasia or let it be? Im staring at my pet hopelessly. The only thing that i can do now is pray for the best -- i.e. get well soon or go ahead and die??? Even that i can't decide...
Attachment is a CURSE! Pulls me into DEEP SHIT yet i can't pull myself out of it. Again and again, i remind myself, no way am i going to be attached. In the end of the day, im just a total failure...
@ 1329, 22102008, thump thump, thump... KILL ME!!!
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