The past has come to haunt me once more. VC up next week with sban ppl, which includes 'red head'. Darn, i was sort of 'delighted' to migrate to BP, in view that i would not have to see her. But, it's just my luck, if she decides to show up on the day im presenting... That's it. Trust me, its going to be another one of those hilarious scenarios, where i make a fool of myself and she getting the last laugh.
Im so not looking towards vc next week. Im ill-prepared, with a case that i can't even make sense out of! Doing portfolios is just sickening, and i'll never understand the benefits what we get from it, other than causing you eyesight to deteriorate to 36/6, sleepless nights, shuffling through tonnes of journals, but ending up using none of them, squeezing every drop of neurotrasmitters out of the limited neurones for the learning issues... It's drives me crazy. Nevermind the submission, then going for the assessment is even worse! I'll have sleepless nights, total loss of confidence despite knowing the case through and through, going though the thing again and again and again till i drop dead on bed. That's exactly how i've been putting myself to bed on the days of 'impending portfolio assesment'!
Looking on the bright side, im almost half way through sem 10, which means that quater of the battle has been won. Im going to finish the 2 postings that i hate most in 1 1/2 weeks time, getting ready for the next dreaded O&G posting. At least i'll and with 1 that i truly enjoy, which it still better be so after all the rumours that i heard...
Sleep cycles now reversed to the worst. Missed wards this morning bcoz i just could not get up! Now im wide awake, which would last me till tomorrow morning, then i'll just collapse if i manage to get to the wards alive. I can't miss tomorrow's session, as there definitely will be a bedside session with Dr V, which i truly for once look foward to, especially in a specialty which i dislike...
@ 1758, 29042008... End of the month... So soon???
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