All i have to do now is to be patient for another 4 more hours... Gosh, viva results will be out. The concern here is not not being to make it into the distinction list, but pray so so hard that i DO NOT MAKE IT into the EXTINCTION list! It's do or die. If you're in, it means that you are pretty bad, but the second chance given is just a ray of hope, where only the 'lucky' few made through it alive.
I totally screwed OSCE's this time round. Station after station, be it long or short. Try going into 5 to 7 continous stations without a rest where you brain does 180 degree flips with just a flick of a magic wand. TORTURE, i name it.
This whole morning i've been thinking hard. Not about studies, more about my unertain future. Was thinking about deferring for 6 months, just to pull myself together. Im in need of some time off from medicine. It's driving me nuts. Especially with the exams and all. The schedules are hectic, holidays short, posting after posting just flies by with a blink of an eye. Honestly, i don't think that im ready to graduate in August. Im not ready to face the working life world. My competency level is NIL. If some patient would just collapse on me right this moment, i would collapse as well!
Oh, i don't know. So many things in my mind right now. The week's break that's coming up next week is so fully booked. It's not going to be a holiday, as if it's another busy week in any postings. I can't go on like this anymore. I need to get a good sleep, i need time for myself, i need to get the hell out of this ONE HECK OF A LIFE!
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