Branded another name this morning, all thanks to 'gynae boss'. DUH! It was really not my fault that i did not follow his ward rounds this morning. There was some 'miscommunication' along the way somewhere (that's just a polite excuse, honestly, i was not told of it at all!). Anyway, hope that he does not take it to heart & not pick on me during the future rounds.
It's rather a spooky feeling knowing as though they know you inside out. When they speak to you, it's as if they know you so much better than yourself! The best part is that they know what questions to ask, they know you through & through, they know what you do not know, when you do not know how to answer, what you are thinking at the moment!
Life in clinical school suddenly has been getting weirder by the moment. I feel as though my private life is existent no more, everyone around me knows me inside out, just that they do not mention it. They know who i hang out with, what kind of person i am, if i can tolerate the 'screwing', if i was ever existent in wards... Next will be they know im dating, when im getting married, if im still a virgin, or even if im pregnant! Why do people around me seem to be so 'into' the lives of others? Why can't they just leave me alone? Let me be whoever i am, not using my weaknesses against me, just let me lead a simple life? For all you know, this particular moment someone who is 'not supposed to' know the existence of this blog, is reading this particular post!
Despite all these, im actually having a blast in clinical school. I really do enjoy every moment of it. Although most of the time im in postings that i do not like, but, in the end of the day, im doing something that i truly enjoy. Heavy workload, long days currently, totally drained out, barely any time to take a break, but, it's more of personal satisfaction. Nothing else...
@ 0309, 09012008, can't i be left alone???
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