I just have to get some stuff off my mind before i enter snozieland later. Im lost, literally. Most of the time i don't know what im doing. It seems as if my brain is detached from my body. The network is down. Server offline i guess. The messages do not seem to reach their destinations. Hands performing some tasks as the brain floats in another world of it's own.

I don't know what is going through my mind this moment. Preoccupied with so many things till i don't know where to begin. There just are countless things to be processed. Im confused. Im tired. I can't think straight. Im going to 'shut down' soon.

It is as if all my brain mater is put into a giant blender, switched on to the fastest it can go. It keeps spining as a 'merry-go-round' in there. Whatever colour is the contents, i don't know. Whatever's in the contents, i have no idea. What a mess...

Time heals. I hope that is true. But, what i lack now is time. 24 hours a day is not enough for me. With a tight schedule the next 4 weeks, i don't think i have time for myself. I need a break from everything, everyone and everywhere. Desperately in need to sit down, think things over, especially discovering the 'soul' in me...

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