Monday, January 14, 2008

Facing reality...

Been building castles in the air since young. Survived till now, which proves that the road to success was not that 'bumpy'... (yeah right) Though potholes here & there, still made it in one piece. This is the time of the year where my stress levels are way way beyond whatever i can handle has come. Less than a week away from gynae end of postings, a month short of the 'professional exam'.

I myself know that im so not prepared for EVERYTHING! I have absolutely no idea how am i going to face it, even the extra classes with Dr L freaks me out. Im not able to answer more than half of the questions that he went through with us, how on earth am i going to pass?

With less than 4 weeks to go, its impossible to finish reading every single topic in time (regardless whether i enter snoozieland or not!) Finish reading everything in time is 1 thing, whether it can be retained in the cerebral cortex is another problem. Everything seems to be so volatile as it evaporises out of my brain at the speed of light. I can't help it. Maybe i should try to put my brain under 'lock & key' from now on.

Going to wards in wee hours of the morning is a total waste of time. I DO NOT learn a single thing from the rounds, & covering your beds at night is even worse. By the time i come back im so drained out, so not in the mood to study, then i'll waste my time doing nothing till the next morning. Where on earth am i going to find time for me to study???

@ 1032, 14012008, a long week to come...

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