Call me impatient, that's exactly the state im in right now. I just want this exams to be over. I just want CNY to be over. I just want the next three weeks to be over & done with NOW!
Im so fed up of everything & everyone around me right now. I've had enough of studying, staying in sban, going to IMU, attending extra classes, eating... The list can go on & on, but can be summarized in 1 word, Im fed up of MYSELF! Im so sick of myself at times i want to take my own life.
I can't register what is going on in my life right now. Whatever i read seems to be evaporising as soon as i put them into my head, when i get a proper meal i have lavages like hell, insomnia's playing it's game of cat & mouse, pipes leaking where it shouldn't. I am already mad, that, i have to admit it. Plus the stubborness in me that refuses to be changed, a disaster in the making.
These days im just so tired, yet i can't sleep. The lavages, sleep debts, morning sessions are all getting the best of me. I don't think i can go on like that any more. I would just snap or breakdown any moment now. I have so many things in my mind, it's like a warzone in there.
@ 1740, 31012008, at least it's thursday...
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