Late Bugs...

I just cant seem to understand why people tend to be late ALL THE TIME... If its stated to be there at 0830, BE THERE! It gets on my nerves when people are late for NO GOOD REASON. Its not only a 'one time thing', BUT EVERYDAY! You have robbed me of my precious time, which can never be replaced! Im so freaking pissed. Better make sure that YOU ALL won't be late for tomorrows trip in PD!

They are pests. If you can't make it or don't intend to come, PLS LET SOMEONE ELSE KNOW! Don't let other's wait like idiots!

I have been having mood swings lately. But, clinic sessions with Dr E is really, really FUN. I enjoyed myself to the MAX this morning. He is just hilarious, and the best part is that the learning experience is incoperated into the FUN element... not many lecturer's are capable of doing that, and so far i think this is one of the BEST so far. At least im enjoying myself in ENT this week, no complaints...

@ NOT looking foward to a long afternoon... CP followed by seminar... 1235, 31052007

Breakfast? Lunch? Dinner? Supper?

My meals have been so irregular, till now i've lost count of which meal im taking... In the wee hours of 0130, which meal would you consider it to be, supper or breakfast? I guess it's just too late for supper, but yet too early for breakfast! It dosen't matter, anyway i filled my tummy with 'the worlds most unhealthy meal'! It's not my fault that i've ran out of REAL FOOD... It's just that i've not the chance to stock up yet...

Out of all the professions, i think medical students tops the list for having the worst diets one can imagine... Junking all day, irregular meals... But it is not true for all, unlike some people i know that must have their TDS or sometimes even QID meals!

Anyway, it dosen't really matter to me bcoz no matter what, in about 1 hour later it will either come out the wrong way up or the correct way down. Gosh, that's how fast my digestive tract works! Isn't it amazing?

p/s : if you are wondering if that is the same bottle of pepsi as in the previous picture... YES, IT IS. And that's ALL i took today... Not counting the glass i had in pizza hut for lunch and the other large cup i had during the movie...

@ Bored...... 0139, 31052007

Pirates attack...

I finally put my butt down to watch the 3rd instalment of pirates of the carribean. Believe it or not, i actually did this without EVER watching the first 2 installments! I guess it was more of lame jokes and the storyline was just OK. Would rate it 6/10, but this weekend, im going back to KL to catch the first 2 installments on DVD for sure! That would be my agenda this weekend on top of the various 'meetings' that i have installed.


Totally 'konged' out after the 2 hour 45 min movie. At least i feel much better now, still tired though. Loads to be done... Seminar powerpoint slides, loads of reading up on ENT (hopping that i would not be 'screwed' by Dr E tomorrow), grocery shopping (im down to totally NIL snacks in my room + the last 500mls of pepsi)... Had a terrible night yesterday. Barely could get any sleep!

Tonnes of glucose + Tonnes of oil (thanks to the FREE dinner) = Toilet DISASTER

Gulped down the usual concoxion of lomotil + stemetil, did not do any help, almost ended up in the A&E. Thank goodness i could still attend the CSU session this morning. After that, was totally awake, went for a swim, had pizza for lunch and then the pirates movie... I guess so far im still able to survive the current mood swings and depressive states, thanks to my HIGH glucose intake... Don't think i have time for grocery shopping today, might just drop by 'ole faithful' 7-11 later to get my dose of snacks and soft drinks...


@ tired but feel OK... 2015, 30052007

Glucose cravings + sweet tooth = DISASTER!!!

In the last 24 hours, i've consumed about 500mls of 100-plus, 2 cans of 325mls of 100-plus, 500mls of kickapoo, 500mls of coke, and now im half way thru my 1500mls of pepsi (which i just purchased from 7-11). My blood sugar anytime now is definitely THROUGH THE ROOF! This is what happens when im depressed. Other than these soft drinks, i've eaten 4 bars of Kinder Bueno and 40g of m&m's. I guess that's what kept me so awake & alive today. This is the result of your glucose laden blood rushing through your brain...


Talk about diabetes... Doctors advice patients day in and day out on diet control and exercise to control the progression of the disease. But how about themselves? Do they actually practice whatever they educate their patients? I don't think i will in the future. Even 'normal' people like me have these urges at times, sure my future patients will too. Just that if they do this, they might land themselves up in life-threatening situations and in the hospital soon enough! In my opinion, diabetes is such a debilitating disease and a burden to daily life. It robs you of your freedom of choice of food, it's complications just make your life more complicated and challenging, it deprives one from trying and indulging without limits... I better take good care of my pancreas now, before it is too late. But i just can't resist from the urge of taking ALL THESE COMFORT FOOD. At times when I'm just so down for NO GOOD REASON, GLUCOSE becomes my buddy. I have had a sweet tooth since young, till now, i still have it.

@ post CFCS visit, back to trench of depression for no good reason... 2255, 29052007

"The controversial one"

This is my new label, and im sure it is to stay for at least till end of next week, throughout this whole ENT posting. Had a rather fun day, by getting picked on the 1st thing in the morning... I'll put the blame on my ever sleepy face that i put on every morning, during the middle of the briefing session...

Dr E : 'Erm... What is your name?'

Ad : 'Ah???? (short pause)... Adxxxx'

Dr E : 'So Adxxxx, would you like to tell me what opens into the inferior meatus?'

Ad : 'Ahem.... (a much much longer pause this time)... Eustachian tube?'

I was in such a BLURRRRRR STATE and SOOOOOO TOTALLY WRONG! Thank goodness N who was sitting next to me blurted out the answer. (That's the best part of the people in my group, we are not self centered, we help anyone who is in need.) Since that moment, i immediately woke up! But it was too late, everytime Dr E would phrase a question, he would look at me. I tried so hard not to have eye contact with him, but no avail...

The day went on with stoning sessions in the clinic till 1230, (at least a breath of fresh air then as i followed Dr S instead). He was a nice, fun and sarcastic guy. At least for once i sort of enjoyed my clinic session.

Flew home right after clinic, took a nap to recharge for the afternoon's CP session.

It was a case of a 50+ year old guy, came with the complaint of dysphagia (difficulty of swallowing), for 7 months duration. It was associated with nasal regurgitation of fluids, ear pain, loss of hearing in the left ear, and a swelling below his left ear over his jaw. During the begining of the session, it was still tolerable as he did not start picking on me, till...

Dr E : 'So, Adxxxx, do you think that nasopharyngeal carcinoma could be one of your differential diagnosis?'

Ad : 'Errrrr, Why not?'

Dr E : 'Ad here says it can be a differential, what do you all think?'

All the others in the group simultaneously answered 'NO'.

Dr E :'What supports your differential? Nasal regurg?'

Ad : Yup.

Dr E went on with the whole list of symptoms, with the intention of me giving YES/NO answers! Finally he said that it could be a differential, as ALL the symptoms presented could be due to nasopharyngeal ca.

We finished the cases by 1530, when he ask if we had questions. H did most of the asking, and N 'chipped in' as well. When he was talking bout the pharynx, I decided to ask about UNILATERAL SORE THROATS. If it was possible to happen... He gave me a hard stare...

'Wow, so you are the controversial one eh?'

He went on explaning that it could be due to a foreign body or ulceration... Bla bla bla... At least i got my answer.

We moved on the topic of tinnitus when K decided to ask if it was pathological to experience it. Then i just couldn't keep shut... and blurted...

Ad : 'How does it sound like?'

Dr E : 'It could sound like anything. What kind of sound do you hear?'

Both of us just burst out laughing. For no good reason. I think he is really amused with my questions and answers today. It was pretty fun and enjoyable. When i thought i was done for the day, while walking back to IMU, i bumped into Dr E once again. (He actually waited for me at the bridge...) He told me that we were 'supposed to' be in the clinic now, as there were many cases there. I nodded, then told him that i had to go home to prepare for my seminar on thurs... (and now I'm BLOGGING!!!) He gave me the amused look and left to knock on some lecturer's door...

Whatever that happened today has lifted my spirits up, and im looking foward to the rest of the week, ALL the sessions with Dr E, and im going to enjoy ALL of it!

@ Thanks for a GREAT day... 1813, 29052007

Medical specialty aptitude test

Was so bored that i finally sat down to ans all the 150 questions... These are the results...


Rank Specialty Score
1 nuclear med 48
2 pathology 46
3 preventive med 43
4 radiology 42
5 neurology 42
6 thoracic surgery 41
7 aerospace med 41
8 urology 40
9 orthopaedic surgery 40
10 obstetrics/gynecology 40
11 nephrology 40
12 infectious disease 39
13 colon & rectal surgery 39
14 emergency med 39
15 dermatology 38
16 otolaryngology 38
17 plastic surgery 38
18 occupational med 38
19 general surgery 38
20 psychiatry 38
21 anesthesiology 36
22 gastroenterology 36
23 cardiology 36
24 pulmonology 36
25 neurosurgery 35
26 rheumatology 35
27 allergy & immunology 34
28 general internal med 33
29 endocrinology 33
30 ophthalmology 33
31 med oncology 32
32 family practice 31
33 radiation oncology 31
34 hematology 29
35 pediatrics 28
36 physical med & rehabilitation 27

I guess im stuck with the really weird specialties... HAHAHA. The only 1 specialty that i fancy in the top 10 is orthopedic surgery...

@ Plain bored & stuffing mouth with chocolates... 2135, 28052007

All GOOD things are not FOREVER...

How I wish if the above statement above is NOT true. It's always like that, everthing will come to an end, no matter how good or how terrible it is. Had a wonderful day in Malacca yesterday. Went there for the food, but it was rather dissapointing as i think the cendol in Seremban is MUCH BETTER! This trip was all about tasting the local delicacies there. We had chicken rice balls, assam laksa, durian cendol, the cendol biasa & not forgetting satay 'lok-lok'. The others just tasted 'so-so', but the durian cendol was good though. Maybe it could be because it can't be found in KL or Sban! It was more of the company of friends that made it enjoyable. Came back with some souvenirs, mainly for my bro.

Now back home, although the 1st of my 4 of ENT's off days, my moods are as deep down than imaginable. I just can't put it in words... IM FREAKING DEPRESSED, for NO GOOD REASON! Im just not in the mood to do anything, would like to get my mind off EVERYTHING in the world. At times like this i'd rather DIE!!!

Dreading to go for the seminar this afternoon. Having yet another ophthalmo session... Then followed by Prof K, where she practically sleeps through ALL the presentations, then starts her HEROIC stories on how she managed to save patients! Going to be a long afternoon later, really NOT LOOKING FOWARD to it!

Im just dog tired now, but can't get any shut eye. How i wish if it was friday again, then i would get another weekend!

@ depressed......... 1114, 28052007

Productive weekend...

Dont be misled by the word productive. It totally has nothing to do with studies, just loads of fun, fun and more fun.

Rather unusual for me to agree this time round that my stay in Seremban this weekend was rather fun, mainly because i was hardly in Seremban yesterday at all! Went down to KL for some shopping with my housemates yesterday. We ventured both midvalley and 1U in one day. KY and YC bought the clothes, i couldn'd find what i wanted, but ended up with yet ANOTHER PILLOW! Yes, you got me right the 1st time, another pillow. Maybe soon i'll end up sleeping on the floor. I just couldn't resist the offer, it was only RM39 for a normal sized FEATHER pillow. who could resist it?

Have great plans of going down to Malacca today, mainly for the FOOD, not the historical sights! Just imagine this, the 3 of us in T-shirt, shorts & slippers, walking down the streets, hunting for food like hungry ghost! Just wait and see what today has in store for us!

@ Exhaused but hungry for more excitement 1113, 27052007

Looooooog weekend...

Anticipating a looong weekend this week, partly because im not goin home. Stranded in the most depressing, boring palce on earth... SEREMBAN! What can be done here, other than go online? The food is lousy, only place to hang out is jusco, no other entertainment, just plain boring. Really wonder how the people here survive EVERYDAY! Thank goodness i'll be leaving this dump in 8 months time, but only to emmigrate to an even more 'ulu' place like Batu Pahat! At least the stay there will only be for 6 months, compared to the 2 years in Seremban!

Just got news that the pest control people will be coming to bring the termites in our house to the brink of EXTINCTION! Damn! Meaning that the whole house is going to stink of pesticides! Indirectly chasing me out! I really should had gone back this weekend! Really regretting now with the GREAT plan of staying behind this weekend. It would not serve any purpose if i went back to an empty house back in KL, since nobody would be aroud this weekend.

At least to lift my spirits up, I FINALLY FINISHED OPHTHALMO POSTING!!! HOORAY!!! NO more staring into some stranger's EYE! I struggled through the last 2 weeks, fumbling, hand trembling, no idea what i was doing with the ophthalmoscope, looking like the world's most DOINK person in from of everyone. It's just not my thing! I always have the phobia that i might get too close to the patient's eye and accidentally injure it!

ENT up next, at least im looking foward to enjoy it! Hope it is true. Will only know on tuesday next week. The best part is that at least now i will be having 2 days off per week for the next 2 weeks!

@ Just woke up... 1058, 26052007

Lethargy... Just totally drained...

Had a terribly tiring day yesterday... Continous classes from 0800 till 1830, in addition to the almost hourly visits to the loo, plus the disrupted sleep due to excrutiating pain... Slept less than 2 hours in total, had be in ward by 8 this morning...

I just could not take it anymore, left the ward at 0930, came home to nurse my aching tummy, just lied on the bed, did nothing, couldn't get any shut eye as well... Was irritated as can be. Just when i was about to finally doze off... My phone kept beeping... Sudden influx of messages, was just too tired then to even bother... Still replied though, but no idea what...

@ Just too tired... Comatose state... 1804, 24052007

Childhood memories...

While having my morning swim earlier today, it was as though i was rekindling the past. In a flowery kiddy swimming suit, googles and my ole faithful floatation device, water splashing everywhere... I remembered the past when i was young, my dad used to bring me swimming. He dosen't know how to swim, but still will change into his trunks and just to accompany me in the pool. It was a weekly event, every friday night after school... Now being grown up and all (suppossedly, but i still have the mind of a 10 year old at times), i feel as though my relationship with my dad is growing apart. Maybe now we dont have a common topic to talk about, but no matter what im still daddy's little girl at heart. I really do miss his company much even he is a man of little words. He dosen't express his feelings as other people do, but keeps it all to himself. With all the wrinkles on his face and greying at his temples, it is clear evidence for all on how hard he has toiled to support his family all through these years. Today, as in now, he is currently in Dubai, some thousand kilometres away from home, working on a future horse race course there...

This is for you, dad...

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

@1252, 22052007

Childhood memories...

While having my morning swim earlier today, it was as though i was rekindling the past. In a flowery kiddy swimming suit, googles and my ole faithful floatation device, water splashing everywhere... I remembered the past when i was young, my dad used to bring me swimming. He dosen't know how to swim, but still will change into his trunks and just to accompany me in the pool. It was a weekly event, every friday night after school... Now being grown up and all (suppossedly, but i still have the mind of a 10 year old at times), i feel as though my relationship with my dad is growing apart. Maybe now we dont have a common topic to talk about, but no matter what im still daddy's little girl at heart. I really do miss his company much even he is a man of little words. He dosen't express his feelings as other people do, but keeps it all to himself. With all the wrinkles on his face and greying at his temples, it is clear evidence for all on how hard he has toiled to support his family all through these years. Today, as in now, he is currently in Dubai, some thousand kilometres away from home, working on a future horse race course there...

@ really miss you dad, 1836, 22052007

Hooray, New gadget...

Finally i managed to install the runnig program of this web cam into my pc. It took me the whole night, just to figure out what was wrong and to download whaever was necessary... Welcome, my new 'Cam Cam', and hope that you come into good use in the near future.

p/s: can't wait to use u tonight!

@ Haha, my day off, going for a morning swim soon... @ 0851, 22052007

Depressing monday...

Back from home in the wee hours this morning (duh, reached at 8am of course!), had a pretty looooooog morning session with Dr R... He was informative, just too long winded at times. Good teacher though, especially with his effort of making every single little thing as intresting as possible. For instance, just by staining the patient's eye with flourscent stain, he would make it so intresting so that it will make you really looking foward to anticipate what happens next. It's just his enthusiasm in ophthalmo, if i may say so, which actually makes this posting not so hard to live by.

Having another 1 of ophthalmo's OFF DAYS tomorrow.

HOORAY!

HOLIDAY = STUDYING NIL

100% just fooling around!

Just installed skype recently, had a very long chat with mum just now. She acts as though im thousand miles away from home, across the continents. I just talked to her this morning, and just now, she just chatted with me as though we had not seen or talked to each other in 10 years! Maybe she just misses my company at home, after since dad left for Dubai earlier tonight, for work. Oh, my mum actually bought 2 web cams over the weekend. One for me and the other for herself, so that we could see each other when we communicated!

p/s: cool little gadget isn't? Too bad im having trouble installing the program into my pc, coz something is wrong with my edition of windows xp... Trying my best to resolve it...

@ Insomnia again... 0224, 22052007

Totally DRAINED!!!

Looooog days, short nights... Just 2 days like that is enough to kill me. Its mainly because im in a posting that i TOTALLY DO NOT enjoy, other than the SUPER NICE doctors in from that department. I just HATE it to the max. Another busy week to come, and im really not looking foward to it. I have EVER SO MUCH to read up, going to classes like an IDIOT because i know NUTS about ophthalmo...

Life recently has been as boring as ever. Nothing much intresting this week... The usual lavages, mamak sessions, stalking people events... Biasalah tu...

What i realized this week is that time flies REALY REALY fast. Another week will be gone soon, and soon i'll be in Sem 9, which means exams exams exams are up. Depressing news for me, since im not the 'put your butt down to study' kind.

@ Unexplained agitation...... 2330, 17052007

Swimming...FOOD...

This is an event where you really have to have the determination to get your heavy butt off the LAZY CHAIR! At least it applies to me. Feeling rather awake and conscious now after a pretty enjoyable swim this morning. Had the whole pool to myself, until a group of kindergarden kids came to haunt the childrens pool. For the first time, their screams and laughter was music to my ears. I always hated kids, and will NEVER EVER specialize in paeds. Maybe i was rather lonely, and after seeing them REALLY enjoying themselves, made me remember those days when i was in kindergraden, no stress of studies, no stress about ANYTHING in the world. The only thing that was is my mind then was FUN FUN & MORE FUN! Gone were those days where you just watch tv and play ALL DAY LONG...

Went to haunt tesco again after the swim (my last trip there was less than 24 hrs ago). Now feeling fully bloated after indulging in a super yummy breakfast...

mmmmmmmmmm...........yum...........

@ 1225, 15052007

Ophthalmology...

From the oxford dictionary...

ophthalmology

/ofthalmollji/

• noun the study and treatment of disorders and diseases of the eye.

But, it's definition does not matter. Im still not convienced that i will enjoy it. It will be long long days to come. Everyday 0800 to 1700, only break is from 1300 to 1400... Damn! This means no more oversleeping in the mornings, no more catching naps in between classes, but more 'stoning' sessions in the future. Looking at the bright side, i still get tuesdays off!!!

Got somewhat or rather tomorrrow's day all totally planned out.

0800 - Morning call by the 'cow bells' at home

0830 - Go to IMU to retrieve my basketball... Disappeared into the dark after playing at 10 at night just now

0900 - Morning swim

1100 - Catch up on beauty sleep

1300 - Talk in IMU... Some paediatrics talk by some overseas prof... No idea what topic... We shall see

1400 - pay a visit to the leprosy patient in the ward

THEN...
Rest of the day either at home sleeping or maybe just 'hang out' in good ole jusco. It all depends on my consciousness level then...

New posting, meaning EVERYTING (supposedly to have known it already, but returned it all to the BJ lecturers!) absolutely new... tonnes to read up... Feeling lazy... Going to get a relapse of depression soon... HAIH... Really not looking foward to all these events...

Had a pretty survivable weekend. Mother's day was mainly spent at home, just took mum out for dinner. Went for a swim with bro on sat morning (haven't done that it ages). Had both sat lunch & dinner with dad coz mum was busy. Enjoyed his company this week, maybe because for once he did most of the talking (was so physically drained out, surviving on pills to look o.k.).

@ after another 1 of our spontaneous BBQ"s... 0041, 15052007

Growing old...

When a person grows old, it will be like reliving your childhood once more. Everyone attending to your needs, feeding, bathing, right down to changing your diapers and wiping your ass. But if we are given power in making the final decisions of what is to happen to our own life, we should definitely stand up to our rights. I saw a 76 year old Indian lady yesterday night in the A & E, she came in with confusion and was slightly feverish. The initial thought was that it could be a hypoglycaemic attack, but upon further questioning, we were told that she has breast cancer, and is currently on NIL treatment for it. When the doctor asked when was her last follow up appointment, her daughter in law told that she defaulted her last follow up in march this year. When asked for the reason, all of them pointed their fingers to the poor old lady, saying that she refused to go. After examining the patient, the doctor thought that the cancer was still in an operable stage, and asked if the option to remove the tumour was offered. The family nodded, and said that the old lady's SON refused to allow her to go for the operation! Come on, it's the poor old lady suffering, and she is allowing her SON to make ALL the decisions! WHAT KIND OF MENTALITY IS THIS! It's not like she can't speak for herself or if she is dumb (no offence here), BUT her mind is FUNCTIONING PERFECTLY WELL! This is a proven fact of the unconditional love a mother 's sacrifice for her son, maybe she did not want to be a burden to him after she knew that she had cancer, that's why she let him make the decision...

I just cant understand the mentality of the 'old school'. It's like we are back in the old days once more, or maybe it is just evolving too slowly into the newer era. I can be considered to be from a mixture of both types of era's, as my dad from the more 'conservative' side, and my mum the 'more adaptable to new situations' type. It would be in my dad's family that you hear stories like this happening, up till now there is NO EVOLVEMENT whatsoever. My dad (being the eldest son), makes the decision on ANYTHING & EVERYTHING that has to do with my granny's welfare. In my opinion, I think that this is so TOTALLY WRONG! I used to ask my grandmother why so, her answer has always been the same, so that i would not interrupt your dad's work, he's a busy man. ARGGGGGGHHHH! It just irritates me sometimes. If you do not want to disturb him, why create MORE problems to solve? In fact, they are actually ADDING to his workload and making him worry more that making it easier for him. Those were the days when i would see my dad, sitting in his chair, with his 'thinking cap' on, figuring out how so solve one problem after the other! And the best part is that all these aren't his own personal problems at all!

Back to the old lady earlier. I saw her again this morning, she was in a much better condition, after given the IV antibiotics. I read the case notes, and it stated that her family members (i.e. SON), want her to be discharged at her own risk. The doctor's advised them that it could be fatal, as her diagnosis was septicaemia secondary to her infected breast cancer ulceration. But no avail, ALL the doctor's failed to convince her family members to allow her to go for the surgery. The decision has been made, all they are waiting for now is for her son to come and sign the papers, then she will be on her way home...

@ Distraught & irritated... 1441, 08052006

Life is short!

Went to A&E at nite today, learnt something valueble that cannot be replaced... It made me realize that life is pretty short after all. Saw a 33 year old guy that arrived dead on arrival. Apparently he decided to end his life by hanging, and he succeded tonight. Isn't it sad, to end your life just like that? Really wonder what drove him to suicide. Made me think whatever i life im leading now should not be the deciding point to end my life. I should be able to see the whole big picture. (im a medic student rite? Supposed to be able to think logically...)

I should start rejoicing life as today will be my last day from this moment on. Do everything to hearts content, no regrets every step along the way. It's just so short. There are times that you do not wish it to end so soon, but you are not given a choice. That's fate as we call it. Life IS extremely short... BE YOURSELF!

@ 0159, 08052007

Spend, Spend, Spend...

How i wish that my father 'prints' money. Then I could just buy whatever, whenever i like, ever without the feeling of guilt. The whole of my last weekend was just on spending money. being in med school is REALLY AN EXPENSIVE event, not only you pay exorbidently FEES each sem, tambah pula the exorbient PRICES of medic books. I spent rm300++ last weekend just on my books, then another rm60++ for the upcoming mother's day cake, another rm100++ for my pda's med programs, an undetected amount of the lunch & dinner while out with friends... That totals my bill to bout rm500++, in LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!!

Hope that these books that were recently 'adopted' will be of good use these next 7 weeks...

p/s : All these books are still in their original wrappers (i.e. plastic bags), i've yet to open and strart reading!

@Totally drained and extremely broked... 1242, 07052007

Going home...

This is the time that i look foward to every week. It's 4am, & i can't get any shut eye coz im too glad that im finally going home in few hours time. I've been rather homesick lately (i just came back to sban 3 days ago!), maybe its due to the quite boring life i led here these few days particularly...

I would just like to drive straight home now! But what would my parents think? Arriving home at 5am? They might get the wrong idea that i've gone nuts! No way, it will make them think twice before allowing me to go back on sban on monday morning. Im glad that im 'pretty' free the whole of next week, since i'll be doing night calls (which im best at coz i cant sleep at night!), only a handful of seminars... Yay! Im really looking foward to it!

@ missing squirmer, the pig & ham face... 0417, 05052007

Super squirmer in snoozieland all the time!

Doggie blues...

Knock knock, who's there?

Pneumothorax... For LIFE!!!

Finally tonite's oncall was worth going. I got to see a chest tube insertion done on a patient which i diagnosed CORRECTLY (for once, just kidding!). It was a 19 year old malay guy, that came in with the complain of SOB and left sided chest pain. They did a chest x-ray anf found 2 masses on the left side of his chest, with reduced lung markings. His trachea was slightly deviated to the right. The doc's there suggested that it was probably a tumour or some sort pushing his trachea to the right, & when i blurted out that it could be a pneumothorax, they were like "Nah, it dosen't look like one." Felt defeated, but it was a good try anyway, so i decided to just kept my mouth shut. 15 minutes later, the alarm bell sounded, the few of us decided to go see what was going on in the RED ZONE. The nurse announced that a case of pneumothorax was comming in, we were anticipating for the WORSE! MVA, multiple injuries, tension pneumothorax... Whatever that you could imagine. Was so stunned to see a young guy walking in, follow by the doc which later announced that the x-ray that we saw just now was a case of spontaneous pneumothorax!

Haha, i guess it's just my lucky night. It will be a nite that i would not forget, also a diagnosis definitely embeded deeply into my brain! Hope that i will remember for LIFE!

@Totally satisfied... 0301, 05052007

Pai Seh.......

It's a small small world. Never expected 2 ppl to have the same, freaking annoying ring tone, by 2 ppl with totally different status. A prof and a med student! Was just going on and on about the annoying ringtone that 1 of our housemates has during lunch this afternoon, then had a 'drama' session with Dr B. I just burst out laughing when his phone rang! Why? They both had the same ringtone! It sounds like the ringtone from the 1st installment of jurassic park,the satellite phone, the very phone the T-rex puts in its mouth! Thank goodness he rushed out to answer the call, otherwise i would have dug an even deeper grave for myself. Shd see the stunned look on his face when i burst out just like that... Aiyo, really pai seh after thinking bout it...

At least my gut is treating me much much better today, so no complains. Yesterday night's plan to go on call was dashed when my gut decided to turn upside down inside out after dinner. Gotta go there tonite, or else i officially learnt NOTHING from a&e posting this whole week. As i mentioned before, it's not my fault if it's so peaceful there when i enter, so don't blame me if i don't get to see all the action.

@1813, 04052007... Goin to snoozieland soon...

Groggy, Nauseated, Squeamish...

All the MOST DREADED in the world! The feelings that nobody would want to experience on a LONG TERM basis...

Threw out the 'meal of the day' (maggi + crab sticks + vitagen). Went straight to 'coma land' after immediately gulping down 2 stemetils... Was so nauseated till just couldn't stand straight then...

Was rudely interuppted by 'my furry neighbour' opposite that could not keep it's mouth shut, in addition with my roomate & 2 others 'swimming' downstairs, tambah lagi the most irritating, nonsensical, nonmusical ring tone ever composed on earth that went on & on & on & on & on the whole night!

Having quite a long day tomorrow, not looking foward to it based on my condition now, and whatever boredom i went thru today... Maybe i'll just 'float' in without by brain at 0930 for the CP, go stone and 'float' out once it's done. Gonna have a drama session in the afternoon with Dr B, should be fun as during reharsal just now all we did was laugh our way thru! Lets just wait & see what happens...

@ sick & tired of everything in life... 2333, 03052007

Sheer boredom!!!

Started the day with sheer boredom! Went to A&E as early as 0830, almost died staying there! (didn't even last for 3 solid hours, went for breakfast in between!) It's not like what you see on TV, i.e. ER, Chicago Hope, Strong medicine... Its a totally different world, so alike KK Ampangan. Patients come in, dr asks 'apa masalah?' 'Sakit perut la, sakit bila kencingla, jatuh dari basikal la...' The list goes on. The only thing you learn there is where to refer a patient, which department to choose, who to call for a consult. Mayb it's just my begineers luck since today was my 1st day. It's been like that since last time, those days in sem 6 when we used to do on calls in a&e, it's just that when im there, everything is so NORMAL! Gosh, its just me, hope it stays like that when i graduate next time, hope that when im on call it will be so peaceful like now. Will to try my luck again later tonite, hope that something intresting happens later!!!

Back to the boring life in sban again after such a long weekend. Got stranded in the jusco crowd during lunch hour. All i wanted to do was to get money from the atm to pay rent! Had no idea that it was J card day today, and was lost amist the throngs of people. Anyway i did some opportunistic shopping since i was there, got myself new bedsheets and pillo cases. (come on, who could resist the 70% sale items!) My usual colour... BLUE!!! Judging that i wash my sheets in sban every week, (so freaking dusty) by the time i graduate it will all be in shreads, better get some backup now, eh? Bought some groceries (maggi, raisins, vitagen, crabsticks, which are the items that i survive on over here). These are the items that actually make my life less misarable here, the so called comfort food.

Afternoon session with ENT ppl was quite intresting. The dr was superbly nice, tought us lots of new stuff (mayb i was the doink so i though i learnt a lot). Was quite a good experience anyway. Oh, i met the people that i DID NOT want ot meet as usual, Datuk S early 1st thing in the morning, the couple prof B & C multiple times, even until 3.50 shop, then kept bumping into Mr G... Haiyo, shd see the smirk on Datuk S's face when he saw me. He must be thinking this idiot, still so alive, after all the trouble you gave me...
@1732, 03052007

Success!!!

Finally i managed to get this U-tube video on my blog. Have been trying umpteen times. This is the video i promised last time, when i was really homesick. Actually this is what i feel like right now! Enjoy!

Back from HOME!!!

DARN! I want more holidays!!! Did not expect this suppossedly looong weekend to end sooooo freakin fast. It just went off in a blink of an eye, like i did not do ANYTHING productive at all. Spent most of time at home, was TOTALLY drained out after the 3 papers of friday... The weekend was well spent on my bed, with all my pillows and ted. Nothing much happened, just with mum nagging to go EAT breakfast, lunch & dinner.

Managed to crawl out of bed on mon as early as 0630, just to drive back to sban for 1/2 day classes. Had briefing with Dr B early t 8, then followed by a class with my 'dad' Mr P. He talked as fast as a 'bullet train', couldn't catch a word he was saying most of the time! The worst is that he started asking me questions that i had NO IDEA about, the best i could do was just smile at him! He actually told me "since you are smilling like that, my guess is that you do not know!" Oh, you are so TOTALLY RIGHT, I memang did not know anything! I spent the whole weekend on BED, did not touch even a page of emergency med! Hahaha, memalufying betul. I guess i better start bucking up, before the next class with him NEXT WEEK!

Pumped myself with the usual concoxion on mon night, so that i would be in TIP TOP condition the next day! Thank goodness it worked, spent the afternoon with beloved WJ, went shop hopping in subang parade. Continued the rest of the day with TW went mall hopping this time, from pyramid, to 1-U, to the curve, almost ended up in mid valley, but decided to skip that as we were so tired out by the time we were done with the curve. Reached home bout 10, came down with a freaking, mood destroying MIGRANE! Then, the phone went on beeping non stop, thanks to my roomate! It went on for almost 1/2 an hour, finally i just gave up answering her, and went straight into snoozieland!

Got dragged out of bed early for breakfast today, with a terrible migrane, gluped down double dose of celebrex so that i could stand striaght! Was obliged to go, at least dad decided to try a new shop today. Bfast in KL is ALWAYS at the same place, its just to boring! Its always the shop in ss14, where they serve quite good yee mee and chee cheong fun. Ben would go for the yee mee, dad would go for the chee cheong fun, then mum & i would be left lurking around figuring out what to eat! Had a cup of milo, that's was it. Went home and slumped on bed till the CALL from my roomate again! Buat kacau lagi! Im not being rude, BUT u really chose the WRONG time! Went on bla bla bla for some time, most of the time i was not registering a word she was saying! Sorry la, was in so much agony, euphoric with celebrex, what u expect. Woke up after the call, was told by mum that there was NO WATER supply! Initially planned to only get back to sban tomorrow morning, but got chased out from home instead! Took a slow drive back to depressing sban just now, cleaned up the room and had a nap. Feeling much better now, hope it stays like that for the next 2 days!!!

@2146, 02052007