Didn't have a great weekend, after screwing the paeds SAQ paper last friday. Out of the 6 questions, I could not even answr EVEN 1! So far, this is the worst test i've ever taken in my lifetime.
Travelling loads this weekend, being the driver most of the time. Surroundings were just so quiet and sombre when i got to ipoh. It's rather frustrating waiting for the time to come, and yet, it still has not arrived. Life has been tough on everyone of us this few weeks, but, as a consequence it looks like the inter-personal relationships seem to get closer as time passes on. Unexpected people coming to visit, getting unexpected phone calls from those who were never heard of for a long long time... Everything just seems to move slowly at it's own pace.
Whenever the topic arises in the conversations, some would just hush it away quickly as a taboo, but there are others who think that there are things best to be sorted out now than left hanging in the air. At least it was rather a fruitful trip down, we got most of the things sorted out, giving us a clue as what to do in the event.
For the past 23 years, i've never been so close to her before. That night, we just sat on the couch, silently, as if we understood each other's feelings for a long time now. It was just that few minutes to make me realize that i've lost an opportunity of 23 years to get to know her. It never came into my mind before this as time went on, our relationship became distant. There were times that i thought that i barely knew her, all i did was greet her each time i saw her. But that night, i saw a life in her. A life full of sadness and misery, full of worries. She's always been labelled as 'being in her own world', she never expresses her concerns and worries to others. Being a private person, only mutters when necessary, spending most of her time at home reading. Due to poor eyesight, she finally gave up reading and resorted to watching TV and spending most of her time doing nothing.
To be continued.....
@1249, 03122007, light-headed due to lack of snoozie-time...
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