These are the times that im just so so lazy, just to even pick up the 'sunflower book' and start digesting it's contents... I'd rather blog, though i've nothing to write about. Oh wait...
Im overwhelmed by frustrations and irritability... A feeling that has been buried in me for the past weeks, since i started sem 9. But it chooses now to show it's true colours, at least it's still not too late before i explode. I rank as high as 9 on the ritcher scale, any more percipitating factors will have me crossing the 10 mark, that time, there shall be no more tempers to control, no more silence as if nothing is going on, no more being 'goodie-goodie' to everyone out there. Just be patient, you shall see my TRUE COLOURS soon enough if i keep going on like that.
One thing that i really gotta thank is that home is only 45 minutes away from the 'hellhole', which means that i still can afford to retrun whenever i want. When i end up in BP from next March onwards, it's really going to be a BUMPY road for me. Not wanting to face it, but it shall pass. Loking at the bright side, it's only for 6 months, then i'll be posted to 'god knows where' in Msia...
Many times that i feel as if im running from reality, which happens to be absolutely true! Most of the time im in a world of my own, i don't give a damn to whatever's happening around me. Go ahead and kill yourself, I DON'T CARE! Why should i in the 1st place, and why do you all out there bother me???
There are different ppl out there, some who are sincere, many more who are fakes. We meet diffrent ppl with different attitudes throughout our life, but, there are only the handful that are sincere, those who are worthy of being called a 'friend', those who are earn a special place in your heart...
Even the thought to returning to the 'hellhole' tomorrow kills! For what? Just because some 24 year old idiot can't even get a namelist sorted out! Looks like tomorrow night shall be as depressing as it can be, and nothing beats that!!!
@2130, 20112007, not sick of blogging yet...
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